It has been 8 long weeks today since we met Lauren – seems like so much longer than that. And it has been over 5 weeks since we’ve heard from her. Every day and every time my phone rings, I am holding my breath hoping it is her. I find myself thinking about her everyday and wondering how she is doing – is she getting excited, scared? Is she ready for this – whatever this may be? Has she decided what she is going to do? Will she be able to live with her choices? The baby is due in 6 – 8 weeks, somewhere between May 10 and May 25.  I know everyone does not understand my heart and my desires, but God does.